happy 3rd babe!

 my love for you is as fierce as the raging sea

i find peace in your love

and only hope that neither of us would change
we might differ in some ways and beliefs,
we might have our 'sunggod' moments
but i know these will only strengthen our relationship

the thoughts of you enable me to wake up every morning
with so much love in my heart
and knowing that i'm a day closer to seeing you again

i love you and i miss you tons babe!

 no more tears

when cortisol builds up, that's when the rush of emotions freaks you out.the remedy?take a deep breath.inhale the fresh air and exhale all the negative forces that engulf you.take a walk.wander and wonder on the scenery around you.look up the sky and silently thank God for such a beautiful creation.but if you don't have such a view,just skip this part.this temporarily diverts your attention from the main stressor.expel the idea of cursing,venting or bursting into tears.not yet.focus on the positive things around you.things that guarantee you with joy and not misery.however,when this wouldn't uplift your spirit,isolation may work for you.lock yourself in the bathroom.you can either loudly or silently cry your heart out.do whichever you're more comfortable with as long as you don't disturb anybody or cause them to panic.still have more tears?try filling your bathtub up.i bet that would take light years for you to do so.soon, you'll give up.you glance at yourself on the mirror and realize that your eyes are swollen.damn!you look terrible.you decide to dab your eyes with water.gosh!it makes my eyes redder instead.much worse.just when you have wiped your tears away,you once again rush back to the bathroom and give crying a second round.you become more melodramatic.crying is getting intense until you take a nap on the toilet seat.what a spot!crying isn't a sign of weakness but holding back your tears is.once you bring your senses back together,you realize that you're pathetic.what the hell are you weeping?lame!get back on your knees,compose yourself and walk out of the toilet.you ain't a drama queen.face yourself at the mirror and convince yourself that nobody and nothing can upset you unless you give them a single chance.hell no!i'm not giving in.instead of feeling weak and stressed out,command your obedient brain to feel good.this is enough!there are more reasons to rejoice.i'm giving my tear ducts time to rest and so does my weary heart.

happy Mother's day to the best Nanay in the whole wide world

'thank you' cannot equal the magnitude of your love for us,your children.i'm blessed to have such a wonderful,ever-supportive,loving,understanding and prayerful ma like you.of all the compliments i may receive,the greatest would be 'vanessa is a very good child'..i hope i haven't done anything to break your heart.at least not yet..but don't worry Nay because i'll try my best not to.

I         LOVE       YOU      SO       MUCH       NANAY!

i miss him dearly.he's the last person i think of before i sleep and the very first person i dream of when i wake up.